As you all know, I've been really depressed this past few weeks. I was only okay when me and some friends went shopping for our cosplay. The nightmares are starting to fade, they get less violent and more peaceful. But my heart still aches just from the thought of it. My cousin was really worrying about me when he saw that I only came home and sat in my room doing homework and listening to music and playing the piano. I've noticed that Im smiling less and less, and its making my jaw hurt. So my cousin took me to Seattle to get me more winter clothes and stuff to make me feel a little better, and we went to gameworks and got crepes and Starbucks afterwards. It made me feel a little better. We got home after 4 hours in Seattle and it was pretty fun. And we got to visit Micheal's grave, and I cried like no tomorrow. We were so close, and yet we're miles apart. But he's in a better place now.